Friday, January 22, 2010

Heather Doesn't Live Here Anymore

If there's one thing I hate to be, it's presumptuous. So what exactly was I thinking when I gave myself the blogger/google moniker of "HeatherIsHere"? This: I was trying to be clever. Never a good start to anything I say or do. My blog title is "Here We All Are" so Heather is Here... get it? I know you do, it's not subtle.

Well, that name just sticks in my craw. Every time I post a comment, I cringe to see it black and white. A small swell of embarrassment washes over me and I think I even blush a little. Heather is here! Here I am everyone!!! Aren'tcha glad to see me? I'm here, I'm here, now the fun can start! I'm going to say something! And hold on, cause whatever I say is going to be momentous and stupendous because I am here! It is quite mortifying.

So to ask the million dollar question...Why not change it? Well, here's the deal firstly. That's who I'm known as. (That's as whom I'm known?) When friends see that name in their blog comments, they know it was me. You know, when actresses get married, they keep their screen name and only privately change their name, because we would get all confused and stop going to see their movies. Who the heck is Julia Moder?

I had considered originally being just "Heather". I like my name (thank you Mom) although it is wildly popular among the born between 1974-1979 set. Which means every single person not named Heather has a sister named it. Which makes for a lot of "Heather" commenters out there. I didn't want people to have to decipher which "Heather" it was that was leaving all these stupendous and momentous comments on their blogs. So I fancied it up and now I'm here. Blushing and cringing and presuming. SHE'S HERE!!! START THE PAR-TAY!!!!!

Then like an uninsured driver it hit me. With just a minor change, I could go from being brash and self-absorbed to being withdrawn and reticent. Which I love. Folks, here it is, here I am, here we go...

HeatherWasHere

She was?

No one noticed when I walked in. No one noticed when I slipped out. No hi's no good-bye's. So much more my style.

Monday, January 4, 2010

Heaven


7 new books waiting be to read.

Mmmmmm..............

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Our Christmas Letter

If you are like my husband, you think Christmas letters are the ultimate in narcissism. If you are like me, you truly enjoy hearing a little harmless bragging of friends. So for the first group, do what you normally do, ignore the post, just skim down to see the pictures, and have yourself a merry little Christmas!!! The second group, read on....

We have had a wonderful, stable year. No houses being built, sold, bought, or given up. Only one auto purchase. No businesses being begun or left or teetering on the brink. We have learned many a lesson from recent years and are extremely grateful for what we have. Here is where we've been the past year:
Hinckley was baptized in April. His milestones are always a little difficult for his old mom, but full of joy still. He is a normal 8 year old boy, who tries as best as he can. I love that about him. He struggles and he learns and grows in capacity. Of all my children, he challenges me most in my parenting skills and I appreciate that. Hinckley loves to make good choices, be an example, and have responsibility, which makes him so perfectly placed as our oldest child. He loves to laugh more than anything and we love to hear him. He is currently involved in wrestling, where he works hard and is learning confidence as he increases in skill. He likes school--mostly the fun stuff, you know, lunch and recess and friends, which makes us happy that he is so well-adjusted.


Halle is going for the Miss Perfect crown. I had to give it up, see, when I married and became Mrs. Perfect. She is happy, polite, and a good student. First grade has been great because she gets to be at school all day long with friends and adoring teachers who hand out candy. Candy and snuggles are her fuel, her air, her reason for being. If you see Halle, give her a hug, you will make her day and be her new favorite. Candy works too, but mom prefers the hug route. Halle is also a regular girl, prone to fits of whining and overwhelming emotion, but I don't know what that's about, never having gone through it myself. She recently began gymnastics, and if there were a stronger word than adores, I would use it here: She ADORES it.


Ava. Oh my. This little girl of mine. Where did she come from? She's vivacious, spunky, a bit deficient in the attention department, squirmy, and completely loveable. I guess certain genes skip generations. She is a mystery to me and definitely adds a special dynamic to our family. Everyone is her friend which has put me in some uncomfortable situations, but I need to be uncomfortable sometimes, right? Ava is in preschool, and although she loves it, likes just as well to stay at home and play with Tommy, her little compadre. She doesn't like the hugs so much although her little body was just made to hug, but she will let you scratch her arms as long as you don't try to snuggle too much while doing it. Not that I do that.


My baby Tommy keeps growing and I am just not cool with that. Seriously, what do I do? He thinks he's a big boy and resists my efforts to keep him curled up in my lap while singing lullabies in the rocking chair all day long. I'm at a loss. Two years old is not old enough to abandon infancy in my opinion. Tommy is best buddies with Ava and sounds like her little clone. He walks around singing "Jacob! Jacob and sons! Aa-aa-aa-aaaah!" from "Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat", which is their song du jour (du month). He imitates her tantrums, her drama, her love of showtunes, her everything. When Ava is at school, and the second fiddle gets some attention, he likes going to Target and Costco (who doesn't?) where I bribe him with hot dogs to love me. I mean, what I meant to say is, I get us hot dogs because we are hungry and it is lunch time. He absolutely loves going to nursery at church, loves to take naps, and loves to get his hair cut.


Darron has has a good year. His business has settled down and he has recently begun to have some more flexibility again in spending family time with us. He has a stellar staff that he can trust to manage things well if he is away, for which I am most grateful. He has had two callings in church that have helped him grow and expand as a person, widened his perspective, and deepened his love for and testimony of our Savior, Jesus Christ. He has become more conscientious as a father and husband and we all love him so much for it. One of his best qualities is his desire to be better. He is an inspiration to me. His current hobbies include wrestling (now that Hinckley is involved), the smoking of meats, eating sushi with me, and flag football.

I, too, have had a wonderful year. I never thought I could be so busy, and I may not be handling it perfectly, but I am handling it. Just don't expect me to remember anything you tell me. Or to be somewhere. Or do something. I feel like I have grown as a parent and a wife and a person. My church calling, too, has forced me to grow and be way out of my comfort zone, but I am grateful for the push. My blessings are great, are real, and are humbling. I have felt the love and presence of my Heavenly Father this year and feel like we have become closer. I am grateful for the stability our family has experienced and the wisdom we have gained. I don't know what the Lord has in store for our family next year, but I feel better equipped to deal with it, blessing or trial, than I was last year.

Our love and best wishes to all of you, our loved ones, this Christmas Season. I hope you feel the love of our Savior in your lives, that you allow Him to enter your heart and fill you with joy. We love and appreciate all of you in our lives, past or present, for what you have added to them. May you have a wonderful new year filled with blessings and peace. We love you!

Darron (not pictured), Heather (camera shy), Hinckley, Halle, Ava, and Thomas